Sweet Holy WTF..... DRE?

IT YOU ARE RACIST OR HATE RAP THERE IS NO NEED FOR YOU TO READ THIS!

My friend shared a video on Facebook that has me floored and saddened at the same time. New DRE and Eminem, "I need a doctor". This video sends a powerful message. One that made me get teary eyed. Allow me to backtrack and explain a little before I share the horror that came from this new video.

I grew up in small town Louisiana. My parents are not at all accepting of white girls seeing black men. I was taught to not date black men at an early age. Actually I was taught to not date anyone outside my own race. I knew I wasn't going to be able to follow that. I watched friends throughout my highschool years that dated black men and the trouble it caused them. I began to think my parents were trying to save me.

This whole time I was holding a deep dark secret. While my friends were watching Saved By the Bell and wanting to be with Zac Morris or AC Slater (scarey how I fucking still know the names! WTF) I was secretly crushing on DR. DRE, LL Cool J, and Snoop. (Seriously! I just knew I was gonna be fly as white bitch that got to shake her ass in those video's.)

My dreams of shaking my ass in video's never happened, but my passion for Dre and Snoop got even bigger. I don't think I have ever not liked one of DRE's verses.  I remember the first verse I ever come out of that mans mouth.

Now I could go on adding my fave old school video's but honestly I think my blog would hate me...lol.

It wasn't untill I was 30 that I found out that there is no real difference between a black man and a white man.

I was going through my nasty divorce and met a lovely tall dark and hot ass man... We shall leave him nameless because I know there are some people here that read my blog and I don't need to put his name out there without permission. He was blacker then black. I could care less about his color because he was polite, sensitive, and OMG had fucking muscles for days!!!! Oh, and ladies that special muscle was just as fucking large! I now know the secret...lol. Things didn't work out, but that is a good thing. I married a wonderful man that moves me for me.

 Oh and I got sidetracked on my jouney through time with video's. My memories and thoughts took over so if this blog rambles forgive me, but I now have a huge smile on my face!

 Back on track. The newest video DRE has put out with EMINEM is deep and has a sad message in DRE'S ending lines. Check it out.

Getting back on track

I need to get back to blogging. I have been so busy lately that it seems all my time is taken up by other things I need to do. All of them equally important, but damn I just run out of time! Trying to edit 15 video's to upload to YouTube and making more of those, organizing the house, fighting with the Army, and running to new doctors are just a few. Fighting with the Army is an endless battle though. You fight that fight the whole time you are enlisted. Sometimes after you get out!

I've been searching for new ideas to change up my page and well I haven't found any that jump out at me. Ones that aren't already being used that is. I am not one to copy someone else's layout. That's not very creative. Sadly I am behind in my reading also. I got a chance to catch up on some tonight. I laughed my ass off at a couple of them. I took a vacation and missed a lot.

In other news I created another look using Simply Kendra products.

Aztec Maiden, Frog Prince, Ice Storm, and N'Awlins were used in this look.

I will be trying to knock out one a day if my busy schedule allows it.

I am loving my OPI Black Shatter!!! I can't rave about that enough either!

I hope this finds you all well and in good spirits. Remember it's Mardi Gras season. If you didn't have a reason to drink you have one now!

*HUGS*

Terrible Tuesday! I need sleep

As much as I like getting things accomplished early so I have my days free I hate getting 2 hours of sleep! I am used to my 4 to 5 hours of sleep damn it. For about a week now I have been waking up with horrible back pain and muscle cramps in my legs. WTF?! My legs get all tingly and then cramp up like I ran a fucking marathon. Shit has got to go!

In other news the children were dressed, hair done, and sitting down to breakfast at 6:30. WHOA! This is fantastic! This leaves 30 minutes till the bus. This is fucking awesome! I didn't have to break up the usual 3 fights between the oldest and youngest. Something is in the air! I think they got together and decided to fuck with mom's head. They are never this good in the morning. The middle girl even let me fix her hair without a fight!

I managed to crank out the first Youtube video last night. Just a collection of the looks I started with the Simply Kendra eyeshadows, some swatches, and screen shots of her colors. I will link it for your enjoyment or just for you to have something to laugh at. Either way I could care less.



Have a great day!



Makeup Monday Early Simply Kendra Edition!

I know I will be immensely busy tomorrow so I am going to get my Makeup Monday out of the way tonight. I decided to do something completely new for me and yea I ended up with a freaking amazing look. I will list what I used to create this awesome look I am dubbing "Infantry Girl".

I started with my Urban Decay Primer Potion. (No big shocker there) I then applied NYX Jumbo pencil in "Milk" to the inner eye carrying it over t about half way. Going just above the crease. I then applied NYX Jumbo pencil in "Electric Blue" to the outer half going to the crease then blending that up with my finger.

I then applied Simply Kendra's "Ice Storm" the inner third and inside corner. I then used Simply Kendra's "Conspiracy Theory" on the middle and outer corner going just above the crease. For the outer edge I used Simply Kendra's "Starry Night". I blended that into the crease and into "Conspiracy Theory".  For the highlight I used LORAC's 3D luminous.

The bottom is "Ice Storm" blended into "Conspiracy Theory" blended into "Starry Night". I lined my lashes with LORAC gel liner and used Rimmel mascara.

I also used the NYX eyebrow palette.

On my face I used the following:

Smashbox Photo Finish

Smashbox color corrector

Smashbox tinted moisturizer

NARS blush

Benefit Highbeam

and for my lips

LORAC 3D Gloss

Sorry for the crappy pictures I had to take them with my iPhone since I broke my damn camera! I hope you all enjoy the look. 

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*I am using Simply Kendra's products out of my love for her shadows. I am not paid or given anything for these looks or reviews I do for her. I love these shadows and they are lovely. Try them for yourself you will see how great they are!*

My husband is special!

As you know already (if you are on my Facebook or I have your number in my phone) yesterday was the husband's birthday. He had a lovely day. As a result to him having a wonderful birthday I had one hell of night! Which resulted in amazing sex! TMI? I don't give a fuck! I felt so freaking awesome when I woke up this morning that I have to shout it to the world! My man is fucking awesome!



I just love this song! It's fitting after a wonderful night like last night! LMAO! I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Holy Crap I hate Xbox... Again?

It seems strange to be able to crank out yet another blog today. Could it be I am bored? I think so. It's not like there is a lot to do in Sleasville Louisiana. OK, so it's not the name of this shitty town, but it sounds much better. The top three things in this town are bars, motels, and churches. I swear there is a church on every fucking corner! It's crazy. Not to mention there are like a dozen more in the surrounding area. That's Louisiana for you. Come on they call the counties in this shit hole state parishes! Seriously! It's fucking retarded, but that is the way they wanted it.

So the reason I decided I had to blog is stated in the following couple of sentences. just fucking keep reading I will try not to write a fucking novel but you know I can't help myself when I get going. The little Prince has a friend spending the night. (Which did upset the two princesses, but they are asleep now with no crying! Thank God.)The little man is an awesome kid. He is a lovely addition to my house. They have spent since 4 p.m. this afternoon time on Xbox. Playing Black Ops and Halo. I love Black Ops! Well at least I used to love it. I was watching them run around and shoot each other and have a blast. I must tell you mommy kicks butt! There are many a night I have gotten cursed out for beating men on that game. My ego died tonight! My little prince has the fastest trigger finger I have seen. He would see me around a corner before I saw him! (Don't worry I called to make an eye appointment to cure my blindness!) 

I would spend hours playing this game! Scoring in the top 3 of damn near every match. It took my 7 year old son to show me I can be knocked to my knees before I see it coming. 

So I ask myself a couple of questions. Have I gotten older in a week? Have I lost my reflexes? Was I in fact playing in an online lobby all this time? What the fuck is wrong with my trigger finger? All these damn questions and it took him to tell me the answers. "It's OK mom. You can't play good everyday!" 

I love my son so much. I could hear the smart ass tone in his voice. I saw the happy dance he did. It's really amazing how 30 seconds can make you want to throw a 400 dollar toy out the window! So I am on break from my Xbox again until I get my trigger finger back! I am really depressed. 

Before someone says something negative. I would never ever punish my child for something I am proud of him doing! He is getting really good at these video games! Oh, and as for throwing the xbox out the window... yea right! We spent way to much money upgrading all these game systems! My hubby would kill me if I broke one on purpose. Now controllers are a different story. Mine has been thrown several times!

I got secrets also....

My girl Falen *AKA* Thundercat posted an excellent blog on secrets in your closet.

We all have the damn things. It's just only some of us are willing to open and share those secrets. That is understandable. Secrets put into those closets are our most deepest darkest things we have done. They could be used against us. Face it - The world is an evil place.

I have a couple that are way back in my closet. They are hidden by a wall of concrete and then I hung sheet rock over that. Those are the ones that would probably get me into a lot of trouble. At least I think of them in that way.

I've tried to kill myself 3 times. I have overdosed on pills, I have wrecked a car on purpose, and I have slit my wrist. The right way. I will not add to that since my daughter does blog and well I don't want to teach any lessons here. I have been through some rough shit. I lost my first true love in a car accident, I have been raped, I have been abused both psychically and mentally, and I have witnessed some nasty shit. I drank my self into the ground almost every night. I did drugs to try to cope. Sometimes I mixed the two and damn near killed myself. I have slept with men I knew were married. I figured, hell women are doing it to me. Then I realized I was causing them to feel what I didn't want to feel. It wasn't right.

I can truly say that I have learned from my mistakes and I learned what to watch out for that my parents missed. No matter how bad I thought I had it I knew there was someone that had it worse.

I have also learned that no matter how happy you try to make your children you will never make them 100% happy. You can't buy their love or happiness. They will have broken hearts, they will endure pain, and they will also have to learn from their mistakes just as we have had to do. You can't take away someones pain and heart ache but you can help them through it. I just hope my children do not encounter the amount of pain and heart ache I did.